nature

how arrogant do we have to be to pretend humans are the only part of the world? and to underestimate ourselves through intentional ignorance?

lost

where am i today? sometimes you know you're in regression--needed regression, for a few days. it's sort of the mental equivalent of sleep. intense creative energy comes and goes and in between you take in the energy of others' creativity. i spent the afternoon finding new and old music that i have never owned to turn sideways what i hear to change (in a small but significant way) what is around me to find somewhere new to start. and i watched two great films i once dismissed.

ironically, this last spurt of creativity on my part will come, at best, to very little. it might bring something from its two-year existence on a hard drive (actually 4) to the consciousness of an obscure corner of an obscure corner of graphicsfolk (already an obscure corner in itself). is it great? no. it's limited by what it is. but i don't see it going any further. which i can't say about much i've made.

sony

i bought a cd yesterday. i double checked to see which record company had produced it. i did this last week too. i guess some matter of trust has disappeared, regardless of who claims what.

the bear would be extremely disappointed.

np: bjork, "bath", _drawing restraint 9_

romulans

apparently, if you live in toronto and actually watch tv, i can be seen in a commercial for _star trek nemesis_, airing sunday on citytv. i'm pretending to wait to buy coffee along with another dgp grad student, a romulan, some starfleet woman, and a couple other random folken.

in reality i had already bought the coffee. it's sitting on the counter just out of view. i was discussing the film _chicken little_ with the other grad student while they videotaped.

np: elephant talk, tony levin band.

you own "march of the pigs." we recommend blondie.

more itunes curiosities:
if you say "i own it" to the offspring, the recommendation list quickly seems to assume all you listen to is punk.
if you own one obscure nin single, they recommend every other obscure nin single.

np: peter gabriel "diy" (from _plays live_)

browser title bars

attention browser-designing folk...

so this address bar thingee...it's broken! for some inexplicable reason, i still like to type out the full name of websites i want to visit. i use bookmarks as reminders of things to look at later, if i'm sufficiently bored (aka never), rather than as a list of commonly visited places. it's sort of a filter. if i can't remember the adddress, i probably don't care.

so why is it that whenever i start typing a website address for a site that i only explicitly visit once in a great while (e.g. "www.goo )" it wants to autocomplete it with something like "http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&q=address+bars+are+broken&btnG=Google+Search?" maybe because i've accessed the website many times via the search box and so on. at any rate, it's fairly difficult for me to get to a site's front page. at least difficult enough to trigger my "computers are so $@%@#ing stupid" response. granted, it's only pressesing the delete key, but still...

ok, enough of that ranting for now.

now

it's never too early to get started on your midlife crisis.

beside contentment

on this bright and sunny day in fashionable e-town, i find me myself and i awake and away from rest inside, considering the whys and whats of where we are.

some pieces of our lives fit mesh and mend well into who we are.

some tear scream break and dismantle every last shard of our own being, leaving us with but a thought. me myself and i, what is this?

why what when and how? where is it going? how is it?

back to arbeiten

after two days back to work at some graphics company, it feels a lot more comfortable than in the past. a lot of friends have said hi faster than i would have imagined. fortunately, it took me all of a couple hours to find something to keep myself busy with. an added plus, the humidity of toronto is not hear.

the month off was more needed than i ever imagined. the first few weeks of completely relaxing in a couple years.

published again: http://www.cs.ucr.edu/rgl/sca/program.html

push pull push pull abduct adduct bulge grow shape scult.

radioactivity is in the air for you and me. meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep meep.

empty brain

i am having one of those days where my capacity for thought is hovering somewhere between zero and empty. i think i read 10 versions of the same news story. and scanned my email about 19 times. i walked around town for an hour or so, and drank a lot of coffee. i'm suuposed to be working on yet another paper submission (i'm 1 for 7 in the grand scheme of things, a pretty bad record).

i think i am just overworked. at least there's a garbage concert tonight.

i had something more to say but am drawing a blank.